Hello I was thinking about starting this on New Year's Eve, but I've already got an adventure lined up this week so I'd better start now. 2010 has been a really bad year for me. It seemed like things just kept going wrong; appliances breaking, my car getting broken into, finding out that my hot career field has an ice cold job market when I graduate this coming June, a really tough last quarter of classes, starting rotations that take a lot of time. Just when things couldn't seem to get any worse my husband of two years asked me for a divorce a few days before my 31st birthday in early December. I fought hard with him to try to work things out. However he already had a new woman all set to be his girlfriend once he broke the news to me and I guess being with her seems a lot easier and more fun than going to couples counseling to try to save your marriage. Now that the shock has worn off, I can see that I'm going to be better off without him since it's not the first (or second or third) time he has lied to me. So I know things are over for good and he has moved his stuff out and we are just trying to get our dissolution written up and signed.
So the last few weeks have been hard for me. I'm never been a very social person. Outside of my family and husband, I don't have a strong social network. I have social anxiety and am on a waiting list for a counseling center to finally address this problem. There's been a lot of things these past years that I've wanted to try, but didn't because I had no one to go with or I was saving money for the future I was planning to have with my husband or I was just too intimidated to try them.
In short I don't want to be home alone moping and feeling sorry for myself. Even though this was not how I was planning to start my year, I'm determined to make it a fun and happy year.
In short I've declared 2011 my year of adventures. I'm going to try new things and try to make the best life I can. I decided to blog about what I'm doing for two reasons. This way if I feel sad about being alone, I can look over all the fun things I've tried to cheer me up. The second is for anyone else out there going through a divorce or break up and not sure how to be alone or dealing with social anxiety that maybe reading about my year will help them see that if I can do it, you can too!
Now my adventures may not be the skydiving or swimming with sharks variety. Some may be more of an achievement type of adventure such as tackling a minor home repair by myself. But I will try and get out and do some really cool stuff and I've got something fun planned for this Wednesday.
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